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Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
12:11 am	i had this really fucked up dream last night...i woke up to a phone call, and...it was Chad. He was laughing histerically and i couldn't make out what he was sayin til he calmed down. From there he told me how he didn't think he could pull it off, but he was amazed at how well it worked. He then told me that he wasn't dead, that it was just one big prank that took months to stage. He was then telling me how gullable everyone else and i were to think he was...(although he never wouldve said anything like that). So for once i actually woke up smiling...but then the realization hit me...again, that he is NOT alive. :( Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: Suicide Commando - Deliver Us From Evil (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 22nd, 2004
12:58 pm	well, i just picked up the Special Edition of Dogma today, paid for my eBay/gothauctions shit, now all i gotta do is just shower and wait for 2:30ish to come around so i can head down to robot_face's for Jennifer's coming home party...woot...and hopefully my new Cygnus can bring some DOOM down upon everyone elses 'mechs DOOM DOOM DOOM i say! Current Mood: determined Current Music: Dehumanation - The Art Of Homicide (A Trochaic) (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 15th, 2004
10:45 pm	*note* this last entry wasnt talking about laura, although i still love ya as my best friend :D (Comment on this)
10:28 pm	i love/hate songs that tell ya how you feel... for example... i feel the coldness in my heart i wish that you could be with me i wish you could heal my endless pain and take me away from all my fears but im trapped in my world of doubt im not free to follow you i know you would give everything youve got and you would handle me with care i will never forget the moment when you looked into my eyes when i touched your skin for the first time i felt heaven in my hands so i try to close my eyes and im dreaming me away in my dreams you hold me tight in my dreams youre always here i never want to wake up again dont want to face reality youre so far away from me but you would always be in my dreams in my dreams in my dreams in my dreams i just wish i had a way to tell this person how i feel, but alas they're not single and i'd just feel guilty like id be trying to steal his girl...blah on a second note... my 'rents anniversary party went pretty smoothly, although they were 1/2 hour late, and i wish i woulda been at laura's brothers party instead. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Blutengel - In My Dreams (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 13th, 2004
10:16 pm	whats wrong with my mom...first she thinks im a nazi cuz i *heart* german music...and now she just asked me yesterday "do you worship satan" cuz i painted my nails black... on other news robot_face's brother is having this big birthday party...and i cant make it, due to my suprise 25th anniversary party we're throwin my parents...BLAH! Current Mood: blah Current Music: Deine Lakaien - Generators (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 12th, 2004
9:48 pm	boredom... Heart of Glass What is Your Heart REALLY Made of? brought to you by Quizilla Current Music: Blutengel - Angeles of the Dark (Comment on this)
Monday, May 10th, 2004
8:32 pm	so ive been buggin this lady at work to look for black nail polish for me...*shrugs* i was bored hehe... well, she finally brought some in...and i realize...painting my opposite hand than im used to is damn hard Current Mood: artistic Current Music: The Blood Group - Odin (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 8th, 2004
10:52 pm	Weekend Summary, "Springtime for Hitler", and so on haha... Friday night: sitting at home, felt depressed...so i went on a drama dvd movie binge. I just downloaded the beginning and end themes of Edward Scissorhands the other night, so i was on a non-stop rage trying to find a WIDESCREEN copy of it. first...i tried Wallyworld, bastards only carry full screen... next i go over to Target (or "Tar-zhay" if you like to pronounce it French.). again, no luck. After that disappointment, i go to Arby's cuz it was goin on 8:30 and i havent eaten anything since my lunch break from work. I finally make it over to Best Buy, find that...and think "i wander if they have any OTHER movies i want for $9.99. So...to sum it up, i end up coming home with: Edward Scissorhands, Powder, & Donny Darko *never saw this...but heard it was good...alas still havent watched it* get home, throw in Edward Scissorhands, try to fall asleep around 12...finally get to sleep around 2am, wake up at 4am. Saturday: Get up and get ready to go to NYC to see "The Producers" and to meet absentia I finally got up to NYC around 9:50 am., and i thought i was gonna be late to meet Tamra due to my sister being stubborn. "Are you coming with me or not?"*me* "Where are you going?" *her* "dunno...you coming or not" *me* *dunno where are you going?*her* "fine...ill go myself then...later" "youre going by yourself?!?!?! *mom* "SEE YA" *walking into the distance* so i get to the theater showing The Producers at about 10:10, wait there for about 10 minutes for Tamra while getting glared at by the "normal folk". shes right on time :) so off we go! first stop: Toys R Us wandered around there for a while, talking about how cool it would be if we had toys like that back when we were kids etc. after that, we went to Starbucks, cuz the coffee shop we were gonna go to is closed on saturdays... sit and talk in there while drinkin our iced white chocolate mochas, and eating a scone... btw, people are extremely fun to observe while youre just sitting in front of a picture window dealy. after that we walked around to numerous places including some nifty designed church (we didnt enter cuz i woulda cought on fire probably) and i guess its the Manhattan library? we walked in...and they wanted to search our bags...so we walked out... *apparently tamra had a knife in her purse or somethin *shrugs* s'all good though. we walked past MTV studios, dunno if tamra noticed me flick it off...or not, and up to Rockerfeller Center. where we sat and talked about random stuff for a while, and i took a few pictures of her *gasp* smiling! after that we unfortunately had to say our goodbyes, for she had plans, as did i... i had The Producers to see...hense the Springtime for Hitler thingy... which was a hillarious play/musical written by Mel Brooks. "its good to be king..." we departed about 6:20pm, and it seemed the further we got from New York...the more i kept thinking about the time i spent with tamra, compared to the show that i spent $100 to see. *shrugs* ill admit, i miss her already... such a sweet girl (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 6th, 2004
9:47 pm	HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Your Homocidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn Your name: Weapon of Choice: AOL Trial CDs Your Favorite Target: Goths Your Kill Count: 1,649,948,617 Your Battle Cry: "Enlarge your penis with this ALL-NATURAL PILL!" Years You Spend in Jail: 45 How Much Money In Damages You Cause: $260,593,776,652,580 Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 95% Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 4th, 2004
8:35 pm	woot! i get to meet absentia on Saturday. :D 10 a.m.-ish woot! Current Mood: giddy Current Music: The Cruxshadows - The Seraphs (Comment on this)
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7:33 pm	boredom resides once again. 1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. How have I affected you? 5. What do you think of me? 6. What's the fondest memory you have of me? 7. How long do you think we will be friends? 8. Do you love me? 9. Do you have a crush on me? 10. Would you kiss me? 11. Would you hug me? 12. Physically, what stands out? 13. Emotionally, what stands out? 14. Do you wish I was cooler? 15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? 16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 17. Am I loveable? 18. How long have you known me? 19. Describe me in one word. 20. What was your first impression? 21. Do you still think that way about me now? 22. What do you think my weakness is? 23. Do you think I'll get married? 24. What makes me happy? 25. What makes me sad? 26. What reminds you of me? 27. If you could give me anything what would it be? 28. How well do you know me? 29. When's the last time you saw me? 30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 31. Do you think I could kill someone? 32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 3rd, 2004
7:53 pm	*stolen from Absentia* Answer these questions in song titles from one band. My Band: funkervogt Male or Female: Fallen Man Describe Yourself: Nothing New / Black Hole / Suspended Animation Your current mood: Alone Your ex: Obscure Pictures / Stolen Thoughts What do other people think of you: Tragic Hero What do you want to be: Beyond Your Belief Describe your significant other: Shaven (hahaha j/k) A Dream Your Friends: Follow Me / Prisoners of War Words of Advice: Take Care! Current Mood: blank Current Music: Funker Vogt - Compulsions (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 29th, 2004
5:26 pm	and what dreams may come... I had a few weird dreams that i recall last night. The first one involved me living in an apartment right next door to robot_face& Rob... and it involved something with her killing a bunch of people with a 9mm and somehow she kept trying to sneak the gun in my apartment n stuff... to sum it up and the second... somehow i befriended Dr. Hannibal Lector? hahahaha Current Mood: weird Current Music: Flesh Field - This Broken Dream (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 27th, 2004
6:06 pm	woot! SKINNY PUPPY tickets have just arrived today...woot! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 26th, 2004
8:32 pm	oh yeah, had jury duty today...what fun </sarcasm> some murder that happened, i actually wanted to be on the jury...i coulda got a week off of work, and paid meals/hotel n shit. but nope...im back to the slave labor tomrrow (2 Comments |Comment on this)
8:02 pm	this weekend was fun...but kinda expensive. pretty much ended up spending my entire paycheck this weekend. oops. so i go down to visit laura after work, and i guess she was in the shower cuz apparently she just got out of work. since no one answered the door, i went to visit "mom" and bob, and bobby, *laura's mom, dad, and brother* and laura's mom pops the news to me, shes engaged! woot! go her! shes got a great guy too...alot better than nick couldve ever been to her. anyhoo, after i went back to her place, we sat around and talked n stuff...then went to get some alchie :) i picked up a large bottle of jd. then they got me hooked onto a new rpg, Mechwarrior...based on the heroclicks thingys *admits his nerdyness* so we pretty much spent the entire weekend bein geeks playing this game, and getting drunk yay. Current Mood: nerdy Current Music: Funker vogt - Gunman [female] (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 11th, 2004
10:32 am	happy easter / death of christ day everyone! *goes to hunt some easter eggs with a nailgun* Current Music: Clinical Torment - The Scalpel and the Whore (13 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 22nd, 2004
6:31 pm	persons comments of Chasing Amy jpleasureking: yo that amy movie is fucked up jpleasureking: they only say the word fuck in that movie jpleasureking: not much else jpleasureking: fuck and yell the whole time jpleasureking: yea the story is really shity i watched it twice to see if i missed anything jpleasureking: but there is nothing really in it jpleasureking: straight guy likes dike jpleasureking: and goes after her jpleasureking: that abou tit ____________________________________________________________________________________ i love giving intellegent movies to morons and seeing their response (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 18th, 2003
6:21 pm	Advanced Big Five Personality Test Results Sociability |||||| 22% Gregariousness |||||| 26% Assertiveness |||||||||||||| 58% Activity Level |||||||||| 38% Excitement-Seeking |||||||||||||||| 66% Cheerfulness |||||| 26% Extroversion |||||||||| 39% Trust |||| 18% Morality |||||||||||||||| 62% Altruism |||||||||||||||||| 74% Cooperation |||||||||||||||||| 74% Modesty |||||||||||||| 58% Sympathy |||||||||||||||||||| 82% Friendliness |||||||||||||||| 61% Self-Efficacy |||||||||| 38% Neatness |||| 18% Dutifulness |||||||||||||||| 70% Achievement |||||| 30% Self-Discipline |||| 18% Cautiousness |||||||||| 38% Orderliness |||||||||| 35% Anxiety |||||||||||| 46% Anger |||| 14% Depression |||||||||||||||||||| 82% Self-Consciousness |||||||||||||||| 70% Immoderation |||||||||||||| 58% Vulnerability |||||||||||||| 54% Emotional Stability |||||||||||| 46% Imagination |||||||||||||||||| 74% Artistic Interests |||||||||||||||||||| 86% Emotionality |||||||||||||||| 66% Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 70% Intellect |||||||||||||||||| 78% Liberalism |||||||||||||||||||| 86% Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||| 76% Take Free Advanced Big 5 Personality Test (Comment on this)